LET ME START WITH A CLEAN SLATE


It's not that I don't have the time. After all, I've taken the board exams and I'm done reviewing. After all, we've made the move and have settled down to what would be home for at least a year. After all, there's no more rush to do anything, really. Now it's all a matter of days passing and of things happening as they should.

So why can't I write still?

Maybe it's because I haven't really written anything substantial for quite a long time and it has become a habit, pretty much like writing has become a habit before. Or maybe it's because of the anticipation of things happening that preoccupies me and leaves no room in my mind for other things. Although that doesn't make sense cause if there is any time at all that I should be writing with a passion, this would be one of them... when everything I'm experiencing is fresh and new. Or maybe it's because I want to write about so many things that have happened in the past several months but so much time has passed that I really don't know where to start.

I want to go back to writing. I want to have this to look back to several years down the road. So let me just start with a clean slate. Forget about everything that has happened 3 or 4 months back and start again with where I am right now. Or, not really forget... more like, not get into them like they're the recent thing cause they're actually not. Is that one of those things you wish you could do in real life like start all over again or delete mistakes? This time it's leaving things where you left them and starting right at the spot where you are. Like life could be compartmentalized in this manner and they're just crates stacked up one on top of the other, not continuous or connected in any way. And you are not obliged at all to arrange them in any logical manner.

Well, I think I'm going to do just that, start where I am right now. And then see how it goes.