ALONE
It's not the greatest thing to leave your house empty at 6:30 in the evening to go to work. It's even worse to come back at 8:00 am and find that it's still empty.
So now I'm sick.
Maybe I worked too much the past weeks and now my body is crying bloody murder if I don't give it a rest. Or maybe I've been kissing a virus-infested husband too much. Or maybe I've just been missing the virus-infested husband that I've been wiping the eyes and blowing the nose too much too often.
Or maybe I'm just lonely.
I don't know how people can live alone. I can't even be at it for longer than a few days without falling apart. I do take my hats off to people who do and find it great, I do. But I'm sure it's not something I'm ever going to get the hang of. So I'm needy. So sue me.
But I'm never gonna.
It's not the greatest thing to leave your house empty at 6:30 in the evening to go to work. It's even worse to come back at 8:00 am and find that it's still empty.
So now I'm sick.
Maybe I worked too much the past weeks and now my body is crying bloody murder if I don't give it a rest. Or maybe I've been kissing a virus-infested husband too much. Or maybe I've just been missing the virus-infested husband that I've been wiping the eyes and blowing the nose too much too often.
Or maybe I'm just lonely.
I don't know how people can live alone. I can't even be at it for longer than a few days without falling apart. I do take my hats off to people who do and find it great, I do. But I'm sure it's not something I'm ever going to get the hang of. So I'm needy. So sue me.
But I'm never gonna.
12 Comments:
ditto, jet. a few hours of alone time is fine but a day? hmmm..
get well soon to you and tito jay..
di bale mylab, isang araw na lang at nariyan na ako. pagaling ka ha!
lab U!
sometimes we have to make a lot of sacrifices and it can be painful but in the end, we know that the virus infested husband will always come back and stay longer. Wait till he gets to retirement age and he'll be by your side day in and day out. hehe
Marikit: thanks tin! kung malapit ka lang dito, hiniram ko na si Amelie para hindi masyadong malungkot hehe... :)
Batjay: I can't wait Pa! have a safe flight back. labyu!
Rolly: alam ko naman po Tito and I'm really grateful for the opportunities. minsan lang talaga, loneliness is a tough hurdle to jump. but I'm ok. I always am, in the end. thanks! :)
hi Jet, i hope you are feeling better. i can totally relate to being alone and lonely. it's tough, but hang in there. do another hobby just to get you preoccupied. have a margarita with girl friends. i need a drink. i wish i was there; ill take you out =) i may not be as good looking as your hubby, but i have two kids who will surely entertain you. they may carry more virus or bactera than Jay, LOL!
oh, btw when you visit Charlotte, you always have a place to stay. we'd love to have you both in our humble pad.
sana nagkita tayo sa Napa o sa SoCal. when you have a chance to visit the Bay Area, i hope you have time to see the wine country. im sure you both will love it.
Hi! First time to comment on your blog. About being alone, I thought too that couldn't handle being alone too. But two months of being by myself after the end of a relationship, and I'm beginning to see the perks of singlehood again.
I do wish though that you'll never ever go through such a test of loneliness and despair!
BTW, I like how you write. I wish I could write like that ha! (wistful thinking :( )
Mye: still got the colds and still got the cough but I'm definitely feeling better cause 6 hrs. from now, Papa will be back... weee! thank you so much Mye. That sounds like a plan and about the kids... hahaha! Hey, Charlotte is in NC? JMom is in NC, in Durham. Maybe when we do go for a visit, we could pick up Ate Sienna in Maryland and then drive off to your place. Eh? Sounding like one big EB... I'm excited! hehehe... scratch humble. Wherever we're welcome is grand enough. Thank you so much. I will keep the offer in mind. :)
OompaWoompaGirl: thank you for the comment. :) Consider yourself admired for making it through and for making it tough. I guess when it comes to that, you gotta do what you gotta and at least I do know that it's so much easier to survive than to perish. But still, from one such as me, I admire you. About the writing, thank you and I'm glad you like it. If it's any help, practice may not make perfect but it does do better. And always, always, write from the heart. :)
Hewo,
If I were in Cali, nangapitbahay na ako sa inyo :). Sometimes a short break from each other is also a good thing. Basta short lang.
Take care.
si hubby left for a two-week training in italy, and the 1st week was spent crying every night when we texted or called each other :P
Maribel: alam mo, I believe there is a truth to that. minsan tinatanong kami kung ano daw ba ang sikreto at para kaming bago ng bago after all these years. among other things, I think the fact that we're apart so often enables us to keep coming back to the point where we need to closer than ever. so... kelan ang dalaw nyo dito sa SoCal? :)
shielamarie: oh gosh... tell me about it. haaay!
I hope you're feeling better now :)
d3nd3n: Hi Den! Yes, I'm feeling better, thank you. Mortgage has a knack of doing that... hahaha!
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